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Thursday, March 15, 2012

I can't believe it, I'm still 46kg after what I thought the experiment was a success! I shall take my weight again tomorrow morning(I mean today later on). Whatever, my BMI is totally normal anyways. And I did 30 sit ups in a breeze today, wonder what was wrong with me yesterday that I can barely do 20 sit ups! But I only did 30 cause' there was this sea wave sound in my stomach and I think I will hurt my digesting system if I keep doing #WhyImFatExcuses

So work was the same today except that it was quite funny where Jimmy yeojunjie pretended to date me and to accompany home and John (ahguang) pretended to be a hot guy by resting one of his hand on the wall and jokingly wanted to give me a hug----all this because of a private joke today at work!

Will be meeting up with Xiangxin and Siangyee later on in the afternoon yay ! I miss their crap a lot through all the band days which are over now, spending every second of my life with them in band because they're my F.Horn girls and scolding them when they don't even take it seriously, laughing when I'm trying to be serious. Quarreling with each other because we can't agree to a certain point and because we just can't get in tune thinking that there's no point practicing cause' each time we play it's different. Laughing at stupid horny jokes and letting them play prank on me even though I'm fuming mad. Blaming each other with my Zouzou because Horn 1 and 3 can't get in tune and we are ego so we assume we're in tune, then resolve to being humble and blame ourselves and and and then feel like quitting because either of us thinks we can't make it. Too much to be said but I just miss them a lot! Sigh, too bad Jozoe can't join us because of focus study and tuition so there's only 3 of us left. But never mind, it's still better than nothing (:

Look at my QTPIEZ Jozoe Xiangxin Siangyee Angeline Azzahra!
Hope to have fun tomorrow ! And that people around me please don't fall sick anymore cause' I'm very worried for you ! Goodnight, shall sleep earlier if not I will die at the end of the week working full shift in the morning straight after working midnight closing shift !

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Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Hello peeps ! I've been busy earning money and going out with my favourite people for the past few days and and exploring the new phone my big sister bought for me ! Thank you very muchhhhh jiejie ! It's really weird cause' I don't actually call my sister jiejie, I just call her her name and it's natural for me cause' I've never called my sisters and brother jiejie and gorgor before! Hmm...anyway, she bought me XperiaPLAY which is secondhand but totally looks brand new and she helped me find the background picture and all that, she's so niceeeee! And the thing is that she didn't buy it because it was some special occasion, she just bought it like that and tadaa give it to me and I was like wow who's phone is that ! Although I'm not really the kind of person who's always updated to technology, and that she could just let me continue using my Nokia with the keypad cause' I really don't mind, but she still bought it anyway, and never asked me, which was a surprise to me ! Hope to treat my family to lunch/dinner some day after getting my second pay since I've been working hard and I have lots of money $.$ (well, not really, but it's a lot to me already).

Yesterday I went to Kallang with Ktay for ice-skating which was totally fun and I don't get why I can't skate alone cause' I'll just freeze there and don't move when I'm suppose to try myself ! And it was so cold lucky there's a movable heater with me if not I'll just freeze to death and die in the skating rink ! Overall it was really fun and no point describing cause' I will keep repeating that it's really fun it's really fun it's really fun <---look it's repeating already! After that we went to Crab Shack for lunch/dinner but didn't managed to finish the food cause' we were kinda rushing ): The food wasn't really really really awesome but it was still okay except that the crab baked rice is filled with crabsticks instead of crabmeat which is slightly disappointing ~ Still, I thought it was worth the price for my chicken baked rice cause' it's not undercooked(you know like the Swensens one and have to pay $10+) and it tastes quite good also (:

Shall discover more cheap food and read their reviews in case it's cheap and lousy so that next time I go out with all my favourite people we can eat nice food and not spend so much money ^^ But I'm always scared that nobody likes the food and I will become totally retarded cause' I'm the one who suggested the place...Apparently we didn't take any photo because I think we will look so awesome that your computer screen will crack LOL muahahahhaa!

Work today was the same old thing and Bao Xiu treat me nice prawn dippers :D Kam How was very kind to me today(actually he's kind to me everyday) and keep helping me clear the plates cause' one my of hands was swollen(due to procrastination for treating it right after I fell down last few weeks) and now I'm starting to regret cause' I thought it would recover on it's own(I'm so wrong). But I think I'm a strong girl so I can still carry heavy things on my own and asked Kam How not to snatch my job !

So I've been jogging and let's just say it doesn't work cause' I gained another 1kg instead of keeping my weight constant. Am I seriously eating so much? Nah, cause' I'll eat an apple tomorrow and my weight will go back to normal HA-HA. I experimented myself and took my weight before, after eating and shitting so it's like a cycle, so if I shit tomorrow I will go back to my normal weight and I can eat somemore yay !

I think I'm aging cause' I just did some sit-ups to test myself and I can barely reach 20 (wth?!?!). I used to be able to do 60 sit ups in a minute and I'm proud of my record but I think I should just dig a hole and die if I can't even do 20 sit ups. I shall start doing sit-ups too, at least reach 50(given unlimited time).

And I just found out something weird about my body<---- it's not symmetrical.
I shall just list out my findings:
My left eye is double eyelid and my right eye is single eyelid.
My left arm is slim and my right arm has huge muscles(I mean bigger, not huge)
My left leg has a lot of spider veins and my right leg doesn't.
I can move the vein on my left hand but I can't do it on the right.
I suffer random heartaches on the right side of my chest and not left side(where the actual heart is)
My left eye has less dark eye circles than my right eye

This is so random but it might be normal for all human(maybe) but who knows ! Shall go sleep now goodnight ! 2.36AM #236 is pan-fried linguine LOL the plu for the ordering of food. -.-

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Sunday, March 11, 2012

I need to rant, seriously dood. Ineedtorantrantrantrantrant
I realise I always don't have time to post when I actually have things to post like the clique outing with my clique yesterday(as at 9/3/2012) but I'm having piano lesson later and then work and then I need to sleep and eat and sleep and eat and sleep and eat. I need to stop being cranky when I don't have enough sleep/when I just feel like being cranky. It's so annoying I can't even take it myself ! And stop getting pissed over what-was-suppose-to-be-a-joke thing, what's wrong with my humor sense? Gone ? Can't believe I'm actually pissed over a joke people say!!!

Lots of things to do till the end of my life, why so busy huh

They are so awesome, why am I here and not in PJ ?! look who's talking -.-

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Friday, March 9, 2012

I totally want to sleep right now zzz omg

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Thursday, March 8, 2012

It's rather peaceful now at home since it's approximately 2.21AM on a Thursday morning and everyone's in deep sleep. I think I like watching people sleep because it's peaceful but I'm scared that they wake up and realise I'm watching them.

I must really practice hard(as in really diligent) for piano tomorrow since it's my off day and I really need to finish all 3 songs to feel slightly on the safe side. Only slightly. I hope I don't wake up too late tomorrow so that all my energy kick in fast enough so that I have enough time to practice. If not for my stomach, I would totally kill for Starbucks and get some caffeine or sugar rush so that I don't laze around. Thanks to this gastric acid thing, I think twice(no I think about 10 times) before I even touch coffee if not I'm going to suffer more than I enjoy drinking it.

So hopefully tomorrow will be good and I'll be practice for the whole day and will be thankful enough if I can even touch scales cause' I totally suck at it since a few months ago I gave up keeping the pace. I even planned what to eat for breakfast already(mainly because I'm more interested in food). So pieces, scales, enough to keep me up the whole day later on, but it'd be good if I can go out and jog for an hour while I blast my playlist. I doubt there would be time but blind hope doesn't kill.

Just went to the balcony and this thing about the sky that's maroon colour, the sea breeze and the shadows by the pineapple decorations hung on the ceiling, it creeps me out. So much for living near the seaside and not enjoying it. For a start, I can't even swim !

Shall go sleep now, long day ahead later on !
(p.s thanks, for those who cared)

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Wednesday, March 7, 2012

This "Types of food to avoid late at night" article is totally nuisance. Well, I agree that fast food, high calorie food and sugary food should be avoided but when they say "just grab an apple" is totally lame. Although I don't know exactly what kind of acid is present in an apple but it definitely helps in digesting so if you're hungry at night, NEVER eat apple if not you're going to get gastric. Conclusion: internet sources are not entirely real though they seem real with all the research stuff.

Apparently today is my ama's birthday and seriously I have no means of being unfilial but I don't know when is her birthday(I will remember from now on) so, I was supposed to know and I shouldn't be working tonight(which I am) and I don't know what to do now cause t.h.e.w.a.r is still going on so am I supposed to find replacement or go to work ? If I find a replacement, chances are that I won't be able to find one and cause confusion at my workplace and that we are not going to have dinner with my ama because of t.h.e.w.a.r. But what if I go to work and t.h.e.w.a.r is actually going to end later at dinner?

This is called eating your own shit because the fault lies with me right now, ha-ha so sad for you xiaoqin.

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It's coming back all over again, they're fighting again.
Why can't you two just stop. Stop asking for money and hiding money and all you talk about is money and your stupid money WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WHY DO WE HAVE TO DO THIS AGAIN. Why are you quarrelling again, what is wrong, can we please stop this ? Why do you have to pin-point everything, slam doors, shout at people and give threatening stares. And why do you not respond, are you real ? I don't know and I don't want this to happen again but it keeps coming back and it doesn't stop. Can you stop going over to that place cause' I think it corrupts you and all you do is shout and talk really loud and fall back to bad habits, can we all stop and have peace for at least a decade before any war start again ? CAN WE PLEASE?

It's not going to happen, it's going to go on for at least a few days, or a week or a few months. I need my pay, I need money to shut all of you up, please stop quarrelling. I need to stay out of this house and keep working so that I'm only home at night where everything's calm and innocent. But I'm having my off day on Thursday and Friday to practice my piano. I don't know how am I supposed to practice my piano when there's a war going on in my lovely house. Why do we go back to the start and go all over again. This is all blowing out of proportion and makes no sense.

I pity my sister, she's going to be at home tomorrow, I hope everything will be alright. I hope I can just sit in the station tomorrow and wait for the storm to end, or just wait until everyone's asleep then get home secretly(which is not going to happen because there has to be someone to fetch me from the custom). I hope the train breaks down tomorrow so I have a reason to reach home even later so that you're all asleep and calm, cause' nobody quarrels when they're sleeping. I hope I sleep tonight and wake up with everything back to normal again, or that I don't wake up ever again so that I don't have to face this anymore. Why are adults more childish than children ? Why do you have to do this ?

哭到没有眼泪了，可以不要再这样了吗？真的一定要这样吗？难道我们都没有感受，都不会在被窝里偷偷掉泪。你真的觉得我们都不管，闭上眼睛就能入睡吗？除了钱，你们头脑里还有别的吗？真的还有吗？
请到此结束吧
"Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart."
Someday it's going back to normal again and hopefully we forget about the hard times as easy as we enjoy the good times.

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Tuesday, March 6, 2012

I swear I felt it skipped a beat just now.
Work was as usual today and I'm getting used to daydreaming when there's no customer, which is good except that I look retarded cause' sometimes I forgot I left my mouth open or I stared at the wrong place(not purposely-.-).
I seriously need to bath soon because I haven't taken a bath yet since I reach home just now because I ate too much and I'm totally bloated now so it's up to my stomach to take it's time to digest the food.

I think I need to stop fantasizing so much for the next few days because I'm not living reality but it's kinda good cause' it's so much easier to live in what you fantasize since it's original and it's from my own brain. But what makes it bad is that it isn't really happening and when you fall back to reality, it's not transparent enough to make it seem real. I think my imagination is so good sometimes I can just think of an object and make lots of things form on it and pretend it works and then laugh to myself but this is freaking people out cause' I tend to laugh at myself too much and they think I'm crazy. So fantasizing definitely has it's bad point too!

Out of this weird topic, my mum is getting back to her bad habits again. I really hope she can take care of her health and stop eating those food that's bad for her but I'm not at home to spy on her 24/7 so I can't do anything but to randomly nag at her once or twice even if she claims that I'm being rude. I think I really have wonderful parents even though I lose my temper on them sometimes, but they are so awesome. I can never express my true feelings to my parents infront of them because I just can't, even when I was only in primary school. I remembered drawing a birthday card for my mum and throwing it away because I have no guts. I hope they know I love them and they're the awesome-est people in my life ❤ ☻

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Monday, March 5, 2012

Happy birthday to Toh Yi Qian !
虽然我们认识不久，也不是很熟，你也没想到我会记得你的生日，but anyway, 生日快乐！
I used to blog like her, but everything becomes too exposed and some people openly discussed with me what I blogged so it's really annoying and I couldn't blog everything real like that anymore, maybe if I happen to forget, I might blog like her again :D

Work was still the everyday same thing except I want to tell William, even though you still won't listen but I hope you can stop coming to my work place and spend money and whether you like it or not I will not tell you my schedule mainly because I hate people spending money related to me. 我没有什么好说的，重复的话已经说了好几遍，要不要听就随你. 我的语气可能对你来说很不好 but I don't know how to tell you not to spend money at my workplace anymore D:

I hate it when people spend money for me for nothing(or even if there's a reason, there should be a limit of how much you spend) because I feel guilty and I'd rather you not spend money than I have to repay you in other forms in the future even though nobody would ask me to repay. Whatever but anyway, this guilty builds up and I get really guilty.
However, contradicting all these, I get over things pretty quickly so when this reaches a point that I cannot control, I don't care anymore so don't expect any acknowledgement on all the money you spend(I'm not referring to William anymore but it's just a continuation anyway, to elaborate on all this).

This is not a frustrated Xiaoqin posting but I'm just trying really hard to stop people from spending money on me. I really hate money issues. I wished we were back to banana notes again but that's totally impossible.

Okay stop this money shit from circulating my brain again
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One good news would be that I'm going out with my clique this Friday ! I miss them so much and they don't make me fear them, like Bluebirds and trend-setters.
If I learn how to mind-block, I'd gladly use it, can some smartass teach me how ?
Kay whatever, goodnight!
好朋友s!

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Sunday, March 4, 2012

Mmmmmmm everyday is work sleep wake up work x1000000 oh how could I forgot about eating!
If I were to type something like " I have nothing to blog about ", it's probably not true cause ' I can blog about lots of things which is how this blog came about, from blogging lots of random things even if it's just the everyday routine. I can't blog everyday now partly because I'm just plain lazy and if I blog everyday I'm going to lose my sleep more. I love sleeping so I'm definitely giving sleeping > blogging.
I'm getting more and more off days from work I think I'm starting to get guilty even though they don't seem like they care since I'm always doing floor and I can't do S1(where they serve the food) but I can do cashier, which is always jammed up on busy days like just now I was doing some payment and suddenly all the order came in and the whole thing just jam up there. Whatever cause' I don't tense up at all I don't know why.

People working for a shorter period of time are all getting 1K+ after their pay and mine is still as lousy as ever, but I don't find a need changing jobs probably because I hate changes and I like doing the same thing over and over again. But come to think of it again, the pay REALLY REALLY do suck. 5.5/hr, and I do shit like cleaning the table, wiping, carrying lots of heavy plates. I'm not the kind that likes to complain about work but if I were to compare myself with others with easy job, mine is totally not worth. But part of what makes me want to work there is that those people there are very nice to me especially Kam How and Xiao Lun and and yeojunjie haha Jimmy ! Although sometimes I'm supposed to do closing where I have to keep the things and carry the heavy water tank, they always help me carry the things before they punch out and go home! So I'm always left with just a few things to do.

I'm really scared that they will classify me under lazy workers so I always try to do lots of things but when I think about the pay, I really feel like I should just be a lazy worker. It just contradicts everytime I think about it. I wonder if I will still continue to work after I start school. The school fees are so extremely expensive, although I'm not planning to buy a laptop cause ' I want to save money for my parents and use my sister's one. There's so many things they have to spend money on and only when using my own money, I know it's hard. I wonder where they dig so much money from, maybe my parents own a gold piece of land no one knows hahahah, okay that's totally impossible but I think they're really awesome to have done so much even though we're not the kind of family that thank each other/hug each other, we just know it deep inside our hearts. Well at least I know, I'm not sure about them though......

Another thing is my big sister is actually paying all my piano fees with the exam fees which is really really money-draining, I really hope I don't disappoint her for my piano exam next few months. If only there's one day we needn't worry about money anymore, it might be the best day ever.

Money sucks but you need it for survival !!! I need to work more to get more pay !!!!

Out of the topic of money, I actually jogged for an hour to earn a praise yesterday, I think I'm crazy cause' I thought I wanted to stop at 30minutes but I keep running with my favourite 萧敬腾 playlist buzzing through my ears until I finally wanted the stop and I realise the playlist stopped too !

One last totally random thing, today I actually mad rushed to Woodlands library to just borrow 1 book because I can't find it at Yishun and guess what ? I saw twin !!! Just the moment he took the escalator down and I went into the library ! Totally unexpected and we were just replying tweets a few minutes before that. and then then then I wanted to borrow the book and I saw XueQi !!!! Well she wasn't as surprised when we saw me but but but it's really lucky to see her ! Then the stupid thing came because the book I wanted to borrow was actually a book I have read before, just with a different title ! Only after I borrowed it then I realised it's actually the same one...the author is really trying to be funny -.- But it was not a wasted trip cause I saw 2 important people !

Hmmmmm shall go to sleep now, goodnight. Gonna die in piano lesson tomorrow hmmm, NO WAY, GONNA STAY AWAKE IF NOT I'M WASTING MONEY!!! Gn, 3.10a.m.

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